Swasan: Fix You (Episode 31)

Swasan: Fix You (Episode 31)

~~I don’t ‘WANT’ you here~~

~Swara’s pov ~~

I couldn’t stop thinking about the kiss. I had done something, I thought I could never do. I didn’t know where that courage came from, but I just felt like I had to do it.

I found myself smiling at my reflection in the mirror for no reason. I was all alone in this room, and yet somehow, even the minor thought of Sanskar made me smile.

I was startled, snapped out of my thoughts, as I heard the door bang loudly.

He came in fuming. He looked really upset with something. Walking over to him, I placed a hand on his shoulder. Little vein popped out of his neck as he breathed heavily.

“Are you okay?” I asked.

It took a while for him to relax, as he shot a cold hard look to me. Something was wrong with him. I had never seen him this disturbed with something.

“Sanskar, talk to me…” I said, forcing him to turn around. He kept looking at the floor, his hands balled up in fists.

“What is it, Sanky? Look here…” I said. My hands making their way to his face, but before I could touch him, he squatted them away angrily.

“Don’t touch me. I don’t want to hurt you. Just leave me alone.” He said bitterly.

I was beyond confused as to why he was behaving in such a rude manner. Had I done something?

“Okay, but at least talk to me. You’ll feel better…” I said. And again, as I tried to calm him down, he pushed me away.

“I said don’t touch me! I don’t want you here, Swara. Just get out!” He yelled. I had never been yelled at, like that by him. I always knew the soft, polite and caring Sanskar. This man was someone else.

Tears welled up in my eyes, but I also knew, that something was terribly wrong with him. I couldn’t leave him alone too.

I stopped those tears immediately, and took his hand in mine. This time, he didn’t move away.

“I’m sorry, if its me that’s bothering you. Its okay if you don’t want to talk about it. But please, don’t punish yourself like that. Just calm down, okay…” I said.

Unlike I had expected, he pulled away again. And before I could say anything, he pulled me by his arm, gripping me tight.

His eyes were no more soft and chocolatey. They were full of anger and worry. And for the first time, I was scared of him.

“What did I say to you? Didn’t I tell you to get out? Is it so hard for you to understand Swara? Just get lost! I don’t need you here!” He yelled.

I flinched under his grip as I couldn’t believe what I had just heard. This was my Sanskar who was saying all these things.

“You don’t mean that, do you?” I asked, voice cracking, hoping him to calm down.

“You’re right. I don’t mean that. Its not that I don’t need you here, its just that I dont ‘WANT’ you here, Swara! Now get out!” He yelled.

My eyes filled with tears, my heart dropped into the pit of my stomach. My knees were shaking trying their best to keep the balance. As his grip loosened, I found myself going away from him.

For a moment. . .just for a moment, his eyes softened, reflecting the love he had showered me in the past few days. But, that cold look was back again. Like he didn’t care.

“If this is what you wanted to do, then why did you bring me here? Just get lost, Sanskar. I hate you!” I cried and stormed out.

~~Its funny how the person that makes you so strong, also becomes your biggest weakness. . .~~

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Swasan: Fix You (Episode 31)


Swasan: Fix You (Episode 31)

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