It’s not revenge it’s love swasan (a way love to revenge) ‘”I don’t love you ”’ Episode 38

Scene shift of Mumbai
Malik’s mansion in Swara dark room..
Swara was lieing and looking at photos and tears rolling down…
Swara to herself – I don’t care that that will happen in future…. I know that now Arjun, Sanskar and Laksh will come to the truth that I am that Misha…. It was all my mistake that I don’t listen to Dad and came to India before ten years I get treated like a shadow of my real sister Misha after her death Dad decided to replace my heart with her I was only eight years and I don’t the meaning of heart transplantation but after two hours of operation when I open my eyes I feel infinitely pain that each second of my life was became death for me I can’t run or walk or play I sit on wheel chair Mom always feed me and Dad only involved in his business…. Dadii change my name and kept my sister name Misha I don’t want that name but they all were happy so I don’t utter a word years were passed I was 16years…

In that time pain was finished completely now I want to see the whole world so I run from there it was my biggest mistake and went to India shimla it was so cold there I was feeling heaven I was very happy because my Dad empire was became jail for me…… Then I go to the church there I first time sees Sanskar I can’t get off my from him I was mesmerized by seeing he was helping blind person to play piano… It was like he was god’s angel so pure hearted but I get distracted by small girl who was giving me white rose I bend to her and then she kissed me on cheek and ran I was feeling so much Happy because I never seen this type of seen in my life then I moved inside and sit one of bench and closes my eyes after some time when I open my eyes I saw Sanskar beside doing prayer I don’t know what to do I was only staring him….. And like totally hypnotised by him but then he opens his eyes and catch me staring at him… I feel embarrassed but then I composed myself and started moving from there…. Just then he stopped me by holding my hand…. I was surprised by his act… He said -‘” your bag ‘” I was gone by listening so sweet but then I take my and goes from there….

It was the new city for me I don’t know anything about but I take my Google mama help and find many hotels…. But after some time snows start falling…. First I was very happy so I started playing in that snow but after some time I came back to reality that it is night and I don’t have any shelter yet…. I applied many hotels but I don’t found any hotel free… I don’t what to do I was all alone on road with my bag and tablet…. Just then I saw some men staring at me lustly I get scared and turned started running from there and collapsed with someone when I saw him it was Sanskar… I silently start going from there… But he stops me… By hand I stared at him…. He said ‘”what are you doing at night…. It’s so dangerous to move in night… Here anything can happen to you then… ‘”he stops by seeing my tears… Yes I cried because before that nobody scolded me….. I started crying bitterly…he tried to console but I was crying continously then he holds my face softly and said ‘”I am sorry please forgive me ‘” he makes funny faces to make me smile and I smiled then he said ‘” my self Sanskar gadodia you can call me Sanskar ‘” I listen his name it was so good but I don’t say anything…. After that… He asked my name and my address but I don’t say anything he was continuously saying but I was busy in starring him… First I thought he was so talkative than after some time I noticed his lips I don’t what happens to me I want to kiss him but I control myself …..then his wet hair making me crazy and his eyes was so pure so deep only want to see his life….

But I was disturbed when he shakes me I came back to reality… He said -‘” you are dumb ‘”I fell shocked what he was saying me that I can’t speak but it was fact that I have not spoken anything…. To him so he thinks that…. Then he said -‘” I am sorry I don’t know that you can’t speak I am sorry but I don’t know sign language ‘” I started laughing because of his act and said ‘” myself Misha ‘” he felt like anybody throw buckets of cold water on him…. Then he said -‘” but why are you not speaking anything ‘” then what I can said that I was looking him…so I thought to change the topic I asked him about any hotel or cottage to stay… He said that this is April month and no rooms will be free because of tourists…

Then he asked me to come to his cottage…. I was hesistating because I don’t know him very well but he show that I can trust him I don’t know but something was pushing me on him I agreed and started walking with him he was literally very talkative whole journey I was listening and staring him but he was busy in telling me about whether of shimla and his family then he paused and ask me about my family I don’t want to tell him about that I run from my house from Australia and came to India so I lied him and said that I am orphan and came from Delhi…. Then he said sorry I think he was giving sympathy n all but I was not interested then we reached his cottage it was really good he shows me my room and then he goes to sleep… Next day I was sleeping suddenly wake up by someone knock continously I go and open the door it was Sanskar holding one tray of breakfast then we both done breakfast after that he asked me about my plan for today I don’t know what to do so he asked me to accompany him in visiting shimla… I agreed then whole day we visit shimla roaming I remember that stupid conversation about s*x….
Sanskar – hey Misha see there…

Misha(swara)-where!!
Sanskar -there behind tree… Look that couple they are kissing…
Misha – literally how can they kiss inthat bushes…
Sanskar – but its romantic…
Misha -in which way well I think its bulshit if you want to kiss then do in open why hiding.. Like this…
Sanskar -so you think kisses should be in open…
Misha – yes offcource…
Sanskar – and s*x!!
Misha – it also…. No no… I…mean… Nothing..
Sanskar – caught you…. (laughing)
Misha (smiling) -it’s cheating…

Sanskar – every thing is fair in Love and war…
Misha (Swara) – and what is this….
Sanskar – friendship… No war… And..
Misha (swara) -and no love…
Sanskar – tell me you have s*x…
Misha (Swara) -what no!!!
Sanskar -so you are virgin…
Misha (Swara) – offcource… I am Virgin.. And you..
Sanskar – no… I am kidding I am also virgin… But if you want then I can give you my virginity to you… I mean…
Misha (Swara) -so cheap sanskar… Stop It…

Sanskar – today or when…
Misha -just shut up let’s go….
Then slowly slowly Sanskar was coming more closer to me in my heart in my mind every where I was becoming mad for him I don’t know when I started loving him from the extent I was with more than ten days he always care for me I also feel very frank with him but I never told about my family then it’s fifteen day…I was drinking water just then from behind sanskar called me and because of my sudden action whole water falls on my dress he was laughing at me…. Then I take another bottle and make him wet…. Then he started chasing me with water bottle one hour passed with our water fight after that we get tired sit on sofa… And started laughing on our childish activity… Then we started fighting for who started first but it was cute fight just then I started going to my room to change but he stops me from his hand I asked him what happened he said that there is water on floor I can be fall…

So I again sit with him… I was staring at him that how he cares for me his concern for me I never felt this much special before this I got completed after meeting with Sanskar but I never see love in his eyes I thought one day he will propose me but one month passed he never do anything many moments came when we were closed to each other but he always takes back step I don’t know why so lastly I decided to propose him on that it was same valentine day before three hours I prepared everything then I listened door bell I excitedly goes to open the door when I open he was with two peoples one was Laksh and another was girl her name was Kavita… Sanskar was holding her waist with authority I was feeling so much jealous so much bad but I digest and welcome them inside…Sanskar introduced Laksh as his younger brother and Kavita as her girlfriend I don’t know what to say I was heart broken but any how I composed my self and go from there I think that what position I have in sanskar life just a friend who he given shelter after that days were passing Sanskar don’t give single second to me and company all time to Kavita in that time Laksh was there for me… Because of him my vanished smile came back but not heartdly… Only Sanskar can make me smile and one day Laksh propose me I don’t know what to say so I asked him for time I liked Laksh company but not more than friends…. Then I decided to leave from here because I can’t take sanskar and kavita closeness so I take my all stuff and started to leave I was about to go inside airport when one hand dragged me it was Sanskar he was looking me very angrily and we both reached to his car… I remember how he scolded me…

Sanskar- how dare you to leave me ha who given rights to come anybody life then leave without telling me… You don’t think about me for once that how I will live without you….
Misha (Swara) – but I am just a friend and you should give this importance to Kavita…. Not me….
Sanskar – what the hell Misha (Swara) yes you are my friend not just but also my bestie then how could you leave me I know you are angry with me because I don’t accompany you but it is childishness that Kavita is come for only a week… What can I do!!! You know what condition I am facing…

Misha (Swara) -what do you mean?? You are not happy with Kavita….
Sanskar – not at all she is a fevicol product who permanently sticked with me 24/7… I am fed of with her…. Today I came in your room to talk to you about this fevicol Kavita and you are leaving your friend….
Misha (Swara) -really!!! I mean I am sorry Sanskar…. Actually I got the call from orphanage so I was going…..
Sanskar – OK if it is important than you can leave!!
Misha (Swara) – no….. No.. It is not important I will talk to them you don’t worry!!!!!!
Sanskar – Now let’s go otherwise that fevicol kavita started screaming…..
Misha (Swara) – ya let’s go….

I was very happy when I listened from him that he don’t love Kavita he was only with her because of her possiveness literally I was like that I got croen of Miss Universe… That my Sanskar was mine but he stopped me as friend as he say best friend…. But I was… Some days passed I was sitting in my room and chatting with my Mom because only she knows that I was in shimla…. She was asking me about my health I take my medicine or not I was happily giving her all answers just then I listened knock when i saw watch time was 1:30 am it was late night then I go to open door I was surprised Kavita was standing at door she was staring me with anger…. And her eyes was red… First I don’t get …just then I was about to ask her but she slapped me I don’t know why I can’t believe that how dare she slapped me ……I was not short tempered but in my whole childhood no body touched but she slapped me first I thought to slap her… But just I thought why I am thinking I should slap her but my hand stopped by Sanskar…. I was like what when she slapped me then he don’t came to rescue me but when I was about to give her return gift then he stopped I was staring at both of them with anger… Just then……that…

Kavita – How dare you to make my mms….. You b***c…..
Misha (Swara) – what!!!! Which mms… And what are you talking..
Kavita – look Sanskar how shameless she that not accepting her Crime….
Sanskar – relax kavita don’t cry I am taking to her…. Misha how could you I thought you to my good friend and you make Kavita mms when she was bathing… How??
Misha (Swara) – Sanskar trust me I don’t know about any mms…
Kavita – then look what it is…. Ha
Then she shows me mms of her bathing which came to you tube it was from my ID I was shocked I don’t know what to say… I was not involved in this crime but all evidence was against…. After some police came…. I was begging to Sanskar and Kavita to trust but I was wrong… I see Sanskar have tears in his I understand that he was also helpless but when police was about to take me Laksh came and take my hand and stopped me….

Laksh – officer… You can’t arrest her… Because I have her bail paper…
Police take that papers but they said that they have to take me and interrogate me… Laksh tried hard to stop me but nothing happened…. That was like a bad dream I remember each pain how that lady constable slapped me hard continously and throw me on wall… I was very weak because of heart transplantation and that time I again get the pain of infinity…. Finally that lady constable stopped.. I was on my knees just then one person comes to meet it was Sanskar… He was smiling.. I don’t know why… He was looking that how much painful conditions i was but he was looking happy he came to me… And sits beside me..
Sanskar -sorry Misha… I can’t help you…
Misha (Swara)- why are you smiling Sanskar you are seeing that in how much painful conditions I was… And you saying sorry… And looking most happiest person in the world…
Sanskar – sorry… But I want to confess you something that mms was made by me….. And I provided evidence against you…
Misha (Swara) – what the f**k you bastard!!!! Why you do this…. To me… I trusted you inspite of that you betrayed me…

Sanskar – look I was helpless because of that Kavita ….she became the big problem in my so I decided to do something big…to remove Kavita from my life…. And I got idea you know why I stopped you because I wanted to trap you in Kavita ‘s mms then I easily get chance to kill her by accident and look I do it I finished her chapter now Kavita is dead and yaa you don’t worry I have talk to my Mom she provide bail to you…. After all you are my friend…
Misha (Swara) – so you betrayed me…. Only to get free from Kavita… Ha… You trapped me and from one month you were doing acting…. Right..
Sanskar – offcource… You got it.. Misha…

Misha (Swara) – and you think I will trust on your all foolish talks you know what…. You killed Kavita because she slapped me I have saw pain in your eyes for me…. And Sanskar you are worried for me that’s why you don’t bailed me today so that nobody doubt that I killed Kavita…. Well I get it and because of this I love you more.. Yes I love you… Well I don’t think that nobody proposed in this situation but what I do my Sanskar you are different from anyone so I my proposing style should be different……

I saw Sanskar shocked face and happiness in his eyes.. Well he thaught that I will trust him but I love him more than my self that’s why I have done many things for him….. Then I stands very hardly and go close to him my body was paining because of beatings but I don’t know from where I got the power to go to him then I came to his ear and whisper that ‘”you don’t worry Sanskar I have forgive you because you don’t want that they hurt me but they did so it’s okay I know you want to agree that you love me but one day you will…. And now go and get my release paper ‘” I was very happy… But I was also sad for Kavita because she died because of me… But that time I get that how much Sanskar love me… After two days I got out from jail and in two I was with some lady thiefs some callgirls and murders…. Their company was not that much bad they tell me thier storis…. First time I experienced that how people become bad or good..

. It’s only because of situation… Then I came to know that which lady constable have hurt me is suspended from her job… I knew that it was all done Sanskar ….I don’t know when I started loving him so much that because of him I gone to jail but I don’t get any feelings of revenge for him only love was there only madness…. Then I came to cottage I saw Sanskar was relaxing on sofa and Laksh was in kitchen… I don’t care about situation and directly goes to sanskar and asked him for his answer…. But in return he started explaining me that why he killed Kavita…because she was blackmailing him to marry her but it was not the age of marriage so that’s why he killed her but I was not interested in that… Then I stopped him by asking that he loves me or not but he directly said ‘”No ‘” first I was disappointed then I don’t say anything goes from thier and went to kitchen because Laksh knows that I loved Sanskar but he don’t anything about Kavita murder… Laksh console me I feel better in his company he was my friend first I thought that I have any feelings for Laksh but I was wrong because nothing happened to me when I was with Laksh… Then he asked me about love.. I started telling him the feeling of love (which Laksh was telling to Swara (Misha) on truth or dare game)… After that time started passing Laksh and I comes closer to each other and sanskar was far from me….

Three months passed in that condition but I don’t feel anything for Laksh and sanskar he was like I was mad about him but he always avoided me then Laksh again proposed me but my answer was same… Then after next day Sanskar hold me and take me to his room I was surprised and happy because after three months he again touched my hand then I came back to reality…. It was seriously my life second betrayal which was given sanskar… I remember that conversation… That he said he only made me as friend and give me shelter to live because Laksh love me… He tells me that how he and Laksh saw me on airport and Laksh have love of first sight… But Laksh have to leave this city on that time so he told me to make friendship with me…. Then he said because of Laksh he was bearing me…. I was again said him bastard then said that I love you bastard and said that I should say thanks Laksh as because of him I get my real love.. I saw his face again shocked and shattered expression literally I loved that expression…then I again asked him that he loves me but the same irritating answer ‘

No’” he goes from thier angrily…. I got that he Wanted that I hate him but I was Misha (Swara) Malik I never taught to lose hope…. But one thing strikes my mind that whenever Laksh propose and I said no just after that sanskar do such things that I started hating well after that I got it that it was planning of these two brothers… But I was not at all interested.. I only wanted Sanskar… Madly… After that day Sanskar started coming with girls daily and at morning that girl go…. And he comes out and smirking at me… It happens around five to six days… I was disappointed but I don’t show my emotions to Sanskar… That was one more betrayal for me that he spent his night with another girls and show me off all this after knowing that I love him… But I have already get it that why he was doing all this… Just to make me yes for Laksh… But I was also stubborn… Then after that he started throwing parties which was very irritating but I started enjoying he understands that it also don’t effect me…in all this Laksh was helping Sanskar like a good brother only for getting me…. Then I started enjoying all this Sanskar have everything that can break the girl into pieces that one girl can hate him slapped him but I don’t know why I always see him then I again started loving him….

After some days Laksh inform that they are going back to Mumbai as they have taken long holiday of six months but it was great moment of my life.. But I was sad after that I got the idea of making Laksh as boyfriend just to go with them but I also know that how much Laksh was serious about me so I dropped that plan… Then I go to Laksh and asked him that if he don’t get hurt then I can come with him as her girlfriend but only for one year….. He get happy but I made him clear that I don’t want any complaints after that one if we started loving that’s OK but not then we moved on…. He agreed and I also know that sanskar Now will get hurt but when I saw him laughing and smiling with Laksh then I thought that I really wasting my time… But I removed that thoughts…..well I get to know that sanskar was going London his MBA so I decided to go with Laksh as I like his company…..very much.. It was night and our last day in shimla…. And from here sanskar will directly go to London and Laksh and I will go to Mumbai….that Laksh has slept earlier but I and sanskar was awake…. Then I go to kitchen to eat something as I was feeling hungry and there I saw sanskar cooking something…. He said that you want to eat pasta…. I was happy that after so many days or I say month sanskar was speaking softly…. I said yes…. Then after taking dinner he started to leave but I stopped he was giving question look…..then I asked to come for night walk firstly he was rejecting but after my so much effort he agreed…..we were all alone on that road…. It was memorable conversation….
Misha (Swara) -sanskar you never loved me…

Sanskar – listen Misha now you are my brother’s girlfriend so please don’t ask me this question..
Misha – hey you are mistaken I will be Laksh girlfriend from tommorow not today so tell me..
Sanskar – literally Misha you are stubborn from six months you are same question daily and my answer was same so what will change today….
Misha (swara) – ya but little love… For me…
Sanskar – listen you are not my type seriously….
Misha -then what is your type… Ha..
Sanskar – you will be changed for me…
Misha – yes I can be… In Love we can change for our beloved…
Sanskar – no… And you know what you can never be my type… Not even you know body can’t be my type…
Misha (Swara) – tell me your type..
Sanskar – well….I show the photo of one lady who is of my type..
Misha (swara) -show me….

I was literally scared but when take out one gift raper from his pocket and give it to me my heart was beating so fast… As I can’t imagine…. Yes I know that it was my sister heart but feeling can be of mine… And when I open it I was shocked… (continue conversation)
Sanskar – so you like my type…
Misha (Swara) -….it….. Is…. A… Mirror…. Sanskar you…..
Sanskar -issshh….. Look Misha I wanted to tell that how much I love you but for Laksh I can’t… So I decided to backoff.. But today I can’t stopped myself… As because.. From you will be of Laksh girlfriend.. So I thought to say it….
Misha (Swara) – then why are you backingoff …when we both love each other…. I will make laksh understand….
Sanskar – no because Laksh have cancer it is his second stage so please… Don’t…
Misha (Swara) -what!!!! But…
Sanskar -please Misha don’t destroy his happiness please… He is very happy…
Misha (swara) -what about us.. Sanskar…
Sanskar – keep it on destiny..
Misha (Swara) -I will wait for you to my whole life…

Sanskar – we should go back…
Misha (swara) – can you kiss me!!
Sanskar -what!!!
Misha (swara) – yes I always want that my first kiss of my life is only from you… So..

I saw his tears in his eyes.. I don’t get it that why he is eyes get wet then I thought unwantedly he started saying about his relationship with his Dad…. And for only because of him he is going to London to get best degree in MBA… And all… After some time he composed himself and said that I was the first person who always with him without any demands and complain.. After that I get his one more betrayal… He said that he was lieing about Laksh that he don’t have any cancer..and then said that I accept him heartdly so that’s why he lied me and he don’t love me he only makes that situation of emotions so that I easily forget him… I was trying to be hate him but I can’t I don’t know why…I think I love him madly…. He was alcohol for me which I can’t dropped… Then he asked me sorry and he said that he will never do this… Then he started going from there but I was not in mood to give up… So I run behind him and hold his hand.. And he looked at me his gaze was touching me so softly…

He was about to say something I kiss him on his cheek… He was shocked by my actions but then I said ”I always waiting for you ‘”then I leave I understand that he was not ready for love and for any relationship so I thought to give him time and also thought to give my feelings break… After that day Sanskar have leaved for his studies and I and Laksh came to Mumbai Laksh asked me about studies well that time I have completed my high school so I have to take admission in college so I thought to take medical well I knew that it was not compulsory because Dad will find me and I will go back then I have to again join college.. So I was not serious about my college but Laksh was well he was younger from me… So he suggested me to take admission in SML college…. As his brother is there… I agreed… Then he provides hostel for me…. We started spending time with each other than I met with Arjun he was also very different from sanskar and Laksh….our first meeting was started from scolding well he scolded me….

Then after knowing that I am Laksh girlfriend he apologized then we become friends I don’t what happens to me but when ever we have talked its like we were like each other and it was true Arjun and my bonding is I never see him as love only n only my best friend or I say soulmate friend ….but he started behaving weird I get it that he has started falling for but I don’t know how he composed himself that time was exam time in college arjun totally avoided me I thought many times to talk to him about his feelings but he totally ignored…. In that time I also have that medical exams but I feel sometimes that Laksh is more interested then me in medical…. But he always says no….
To be continued………..

It’s not revenge it’s love swasan (a way love to revenge) ‘”I don’t love you ”’ Episode 38

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It’s not revenge it’s love swasan (a way love to revenge) ‘”I don’t love you ”’ Episode 38

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